Saturday, 17 August 2013

Feeling low and getting help...

Now I know we all have bad days but why do I seem to feel like I always have more than most? Is there something majorly wrong with me? I admit it. I failed in my aim to be positive this month. I'm sorry to all my readers. I did make you a promise and I never achieved my goal. I guess deep down I knew I wouldn't last. I think I've known it from the very off. I'm just not a positive person and tend to see the negative in everything. Which I know is wrong. I know I need to stop being so down all the time but I don't know how to stop myself from feeling like this. Well actually I do and that's why I'm going to make a change.

You must be thinking, 'she says this all the time'. Which yes I do. But this time I'm getting proper help. I thought it's best that I tell yous all first as I really don't know how this is going to effect me or what I'm going to turn out like. Let's hope for the better and I suddenly gain a new lease of life. But to be honest you never can tell. But fingers crossed it will all be good. Anyway I've actually gotten round to doing what I've known for about 8 months I needed to do. I've booked myself a doctors appointment for Tuesday and with any luck they may be able to help me stop feeling so low all the time! 

I do believe I may be depressed. Either that or I have severe anxiety/stress/OCD. Well in fact I have all of those two. Plus I know I still have eating issues as well, not so much in the sense that I've got an actual disorder but I'm still conscious. I guess it's something that I probably always will be though ever since my eating disorder when I was fourteen. But that's a whole other story. Connected to this. Possibly. The entire reason for this.Not even the slightest.

I'm hoping my going to see the doctor on Tuesday they might be able to offer me some sort of antidepressant. I know they say that antidepressants are a last resort but I really have tried everything else. I've tried counselling  I've tried hypnotherapy. I've tried herbal remedies of all kinds. I've spoken to endless amounts of people and they're not making me any better. I need something to actually give me a boost! And let's fact it, how many people in the world do actually take them? Thousands. If not millions. They're not abnormal! And I won't be abnormal for having them. If anything they will be making me normal! 

So I guess we'll just have to wait and see how I get on. I really hope they see how much I need them. It really is a case of need. Of course I will listen to their suggestions and discuss alternatives, but I really can't see any other alternative right now. So keep your fingers crossed for me!

Emily x

PS:  If anyone else is in the same situation or had similar experiences or anything. I'd really appreciate some ideas and advice. Equally I'm happy to discuss my own experiences too!

Thursday, 1 August 2013

Defeating your problems.. One dog's inspirational story

Hey everyone,

Well I posted yesterday about how I was determined to make August my month and one that will be the start of a whole new me. And in a way I kind of have as I'm refusing to give up just yet. I will admit I've not had the best of days though. My emotions have been a bit all over the place and things that shouldn't have been bothering me have.  But I'm not going to dwell too much and trying not to be overly negative about it. After all things aren't the end of the world and there are a lot of people who have probably had a worse day than me. 

See so I am slowly becoming more optimistic! Just think I usually would have continued to be negative and not even considered that anyone could be having a worse time than me! Nor would I have thought that I could improve the situatin in any way. So I really am trying! 

So what has actually got me being so positive? Well apart from a more healthier attitude to everything I also have seen quite an inspirational video today. Now I'm not saying that this is the reason that my whole outlook on life has changed but it did make me feel quite emotional in a good way! It made me think that a lot of people and animals have a lot of difficulty in their daily lives through genuine physical problems. Where as all my issues are silly little things that are easily fixable. Some people can't just easily fix their problems. Not without a great deal of effort and determination and even then it's not always guaranteed.

To get what I'm really talking about you'll have to see this video. So here it is:

Is that not the most cutest and sweetest thing you've ever seen?

Well I thought so anyway! And it just goes to show that you really can defeat your problems! So that's exactly what I aim to do! :D 

Let me know what you think about the video :)

Emily x