tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-25579706316474750282024-03-13T02:49:44.712-07:00Shine Bright BeautyEmily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.comBlogger61125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-76685220797672862972014-02-27T19:52:00.001-08:002014-02-28T17:28:58.517-08:00The one beyond help...<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It's gotten to that stage where I don't even know how to describe how I'm feeling anymore. My moods are so up and down I go from being in a state of calmness, like I am right at this second, to 10 seconds later being upset, 10 seconds later - low, 10 seconds - angry, 10 seconds - scared. I think you get the idea.<b> I just never know what to think of myself anymore. </b>But all I know is that I am not right. I am not normal. I am no where near able to consider myself like everyone else. <b>I am a mess</b>. And that's being kind to myself. My god was I seriously... complimentary.. of myself! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But today I've realised a lot of things. No matter how much I tell myself that I'm trying to improve. That I'm slowly and surely getting better. That my mind is becoming more stable and my moods improving. Plus my body getting healthier too. I now know this is all one big lie. <b>I'm lying to myself.</b> I'm not getting better. If anything I fear that I'm going backwards. In fact I know I am. I'm becoming more ill. More ill in the head.<b> I lack any control</b> and the things I love are hurting me. I now fear the things I love.<b> I now fear to be who I used to be.</b> I am not normal. The worrying thing is. I don't know if I want to be either. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now you may say there is nothing wrong with wanting to be an individual. But <b>I am obsessed.</b> And from things I'm obsessed with I now know I'm not alone. But these are the same things that are making me worse. I almost want to be worse than them. Yet at the same time better. How does this work? I guess the truth is<b> I don't even know what I want anymore</b> and I'm not sure if I care either. In fact the way I'm going, I don't think it will matter anyway. I'm not going to get better. Deep down I know that's the truth. It's because I know in all honesty<b> I don't want to get better</b>. I like the fact I'm slowly declining as it gives me a reason to accept why I'm a failure. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Everyone says to me that when I'm better my whole attitude will change. Everyone says as soon as my moods balance out, my body returns to health, that in myself I will be happier. Have a more positive outlook at life and maybe will achieve what I truly want. But thinking about it, why should I? <b>Why should I make myself happy? </b>I don't deserve it. And what's to say even if my 'mind' magically does improve to 'normal' that I will actually be happier and not a failure. Maybe the only true way for me to achieve anything is to change what I want to achieve. And I know that the <b>one thing I'm good at is being miserable</b>, upset, low, and obsessive. So why not specialize in that? But of course this doesn't make me happy either. The opposite in fact.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I feel I'm not even making sense. But I think that's because I don't even make sense to myself. I have no control over my life anymore.<b> I am being controlled.</b> By a force that is twisted and telling me that I'm a mess. <b>My mind is one big blur</b> and a constant state of confusion. I know what I should do to really help myself but I refuse to allow myself that help. I don't deserve help and maybe I like not being helped. Maybe <b>I like the sense of constantly being a let down</b>. At least if I'm disappointed in myself it makes it all the easier for other people to be disappointed in me too.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I realise this post is extremely negative. I never intended to be so negative. Not this week. I planned for any blog posts this week to be one of my strength and recovery. Seeing as it's <b>National Eating Disorder Awareness week</b> and I wanted to be able to write about how well I've done to overcome such a serious mental illness. But even if I don't see it as bad a mental illness as I had before and see other mental problems being more of the cause, as much as others say it's just an eating problem. I know I'm not well. If I was really well I wouldn't have the <b>sense of self loave</b> in me. I wouldn't be as obsessive with my eating times. I wouldn't love exercise so much that if I don't do it I hate myself to the point I find it hard to eat. Well I don't. Which is all the more problem as I won't let myself eat before I've decided it's the appropriate time. So if I betray this<b> I feel I let myself down</b> and then resent myself. So I guess this is a form of an eating disorder.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So I think we've concluded I'm not sound in the head. <b>I'm not getting any better</b> and if I'm honest I don't want to either. I like being the one that people look at with despair. Otherwise I'd simply fade into the background and have no excuse for being the state and mess I am. So no <b>I'm not recovered</b> and no I have no intentions of dramatically changing. I guess eventually I'll get what's coming to me and will eventually disappear. Which by then I'll be simply known as<b> the girl who refused to be helped. </b></span><br />
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<b><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Emily x</span></b><br />
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<span style="font-size: xx-small;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Image Source: </span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">http://my-purple-dreams.blogspot.co.uk/2012/10/when-are-you-due.html</span></span>Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-63350417005085346122014-02-18T16:50:00.001-08:002014-02-18T16:53:45.506-08:00Maybe the best things are left unsaid..<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Last week I wrote a blog post, basically expressing my anger at a comment someone made towards me on Twitter. Well all I can say is that was although I don't take back what I said. Because at the time it was how I was truly feeling and in a way still what I believe. Therefore I'm perfectly entitled to say it. But at the same time I wish I had never written the post. Purely because it's now made me scared to express my opinions at all. This blog was supposed to be the only place that I could<b> truly express my views</b> without fear or judgment, unlike other social mediums. But even this ended up causing me problems in the shape of people who were my friends now not talking to me at all. One of them even blocking me on Instagram and writing a series of tweets about me (indirect of course). </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The fact this all stemmed just from my blog post, has just driven me to absolute dispair. It's made them hate me. <b>I'm now even more alone</b> than ever before as I have lost all connection with the girl I used to be. I think in a way having them still back at home was the only thing that reminded me of the life I used to have. Now that's well and truly gone because they clearly don't want anything to do with me anymore and I don't feel I'll ever redeem that from them.</span><br />
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<a href="http://unspokenwordstoyou.files.wordpress.com/2012/11/tumblr_mb1on0htgk1qjm9bpo1_500.png?w=560" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="http://unspokenwordstoyou.files.wordpress.com/2012/11/tumblr_mb1on0htgk1qjm9bpo1_500.png?w=560" height="320" width="213" /></a><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It's made me realise<b> I really don't have any friends.</b> I'm completely alone. I don't really have anyone I can confine in at uni as no one will ever truly understand because they haven't known me since I was first suffering - back when I was 13. So what they see now they think is me at my worst. But it's not. Or at least not in weight wise and eating wise. Maybe not in mind wise as<b> I'm certain I've deteriorated</b> in those terms probably not helped by uni stress and various other factors in my life occurring over the last year but I'm better eating wise at least 70%. But no one sees that. <b>No one believes me</b> either. No matter how much I insist it. In fact I know my own family even dis-believe me. So <b>why should I expect people who have known me less than two years to really understand?</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I guess what I'm trying to say is <b>I fear of having a voice</b>. I fear of speaking as I know the rare times I do I just <b>land myself in more trouble </b>and maybe it's just best if I hold everything in to myself. I guess if I keep quiet and keep my thoughts unknown then <b>the only person I can hurt is myself.</b> And that's hardly anything new is it?</span><br />
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Emily x</b></span><br />
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<br />Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-41971637066749490352014-02-13T15:57:00.001-08:002014-02-13T16:01:54.583-08:00Single Girls and Cocktails<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>February 14th</b>. The day that for many is <b>symbolic of love,
relationships and romance</b>. Unless you’re single of course, then it’s
more just a gentle reminder that <b>you’re alone</b> and haven’t got that
‘special’ someone to lavish you with attention, love and maybe a gift…
or two. Some people believe <b>it’s amazing that any singleton can even
find a reason to smile</b> on such a lovey- dovey day. Well rest assured I
have found the perfect solution. This has come after many years of
<b>spending Valentine’s Day dateless</b> and I’ve decided it’s not a reason to
dwell. In fact why shouldn’t I be celebrating? After all being a single
girl definitely has its perks!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Just think you <b>don’t have the issue of getting the ‘perfect’ present</b>
for your loved one. No bother with finding and writing an emotive and
heart felt message in a card. Plus you can have complete freedom of how
you spend Valentine’s Day. So this year I’ve decided to make a night of
<b>Valentine’s Day</b>. And I encourage all you other single girls out there to
do the same. How am I going to do this I hear you ask? By celebrating
in true single girl style and <b>throwing a cocktail party!</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I couldn’t think of anything better than inviting a few of my fellow
single friends round (although those in relationships are welcome too)
to<b> enjoy a night of having fun, gossiping and knocking back a few
Valentine’s themed beverages</b>. I mean, why not? We owe it to ourselves to
celebrate being us! Plus why let couples steal a day from us?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I feel a party at home is more appropriate than going out. Purely for
the fact that every restaurant/bar/club/anywhere with some sort of
social aspect will be full of couples. So, to avoid the heart ache and
general ‘<b>Oh bless, they’re on their own’</b> scenario, I feel a night in is
more appropriate. Plus it will probably work out cheaper in the long run
too!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">You might have the issue of not knowing what cocktails to make,
especially if you rely on the <b>cocktail list</b> at the bar to inspire you.
Well worry no more as I have supplied a list of some tried and tested
cocktail recipes to give you some ideas of what to indulge in (and yes
they really are luxurious) this <b>February 14th</b>.</span><br />
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<strong><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The Romance</span></strong><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This will be all you need to fall in love. Who needs a partner when
you can have this little taste of heaven instead? This cocktail is very
rich and sweet and the chocolate, coffee and cream mix make this the
perfect combination of a drink and dessert all in one. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ingredients:</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">3/4 ounce Kahlua</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">3/4 ounce Bailey’s</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">3/4 ounce brown Creme de Cacao</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">1 ounce heavy cream</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Cocoa powder/chocolate sprinkles</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Marshmallows</span></li>
</ul>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Method:</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Simply mix all the liquid ingredients together with ice before
straining into a glass. Martini ones are my best recommendation. Then
top with your choice of chocolaty treat. I personally like the
marshmallows and chocolate sprinkles but feel free to adapt to your
preference.</span><br />
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<strong><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">White Strawberry Sangria</span></strong><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Sangria for me is the reminder of hot summer days and being happy. So
why not brighten up a dull and dreary February evening by adding a bit
of that warming summer sparkle? This adaption will leave you refreshed
and definitely in your happy little place.</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">125ml of white wine</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">30ml strawberry Schnapps</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">1 tablespoon sugar</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">2 strawberries</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ice</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Method:</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Combine the wine, Schnapps and sugar, stirring until the sugar has
completely dissolved. Then slice up the strawberries into bite-sized
pieces. Pour your beverage into a glass filled with ice and top with the
sliced strawberries.</span><br />
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<strong><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Raspberry and Chocolate Martini</span></strong><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Another chocolaty one, after all it’s only fair that us single girls
get the benefits of chocolate on Valentine’s Day too! The mixture of
chocolate and raspberries means this is another sweet one and it is
luxurious to say the very least. But who cares, we deserve it.</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">50ml vodka</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">25ml chocolate syrup</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">4 raspberries</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">1 teaspoon chocolate/cocoa powder</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ice</span></li>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Method:</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Fill a shaker with all the ingredients except the chocolate powder.
Shake thoroughly before straining into a martini glass. Use the
chocolate powder to top as a garnish. You may wish to also add extra
raspberries.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">If you’re a non-drinker you don’t have to be left out either. So here is an equally indulgent mocktail to treat yourself too.</span><br />
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<strong><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Virgin on the Beach</span></strong><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">A non-alcoholic twist on the classic Sex on the Beach. Still equally
as refreshing and fruity but without all the headache in the morning.</span><br />
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<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">30ml grapefruit juice</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">30ml cranberry juice</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">1 teaspoon coconut milk</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">180ml water</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ice</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Choice of fruit (berries or grapes work well)</span></li>
</ul>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Method:</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Combine all liquid ingredients plus ice and blend together until
completely smooth. Pour into a glass and top with your own choice of
fruit as a garnish.</span><br />
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<strong><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Spicy Raspberry Lemon Cooler</span></strong><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">This is for those of you who want the sophistication of a fruity
cocktail but are still reminising over the days when Valentine’s Day was
just a distant memory. Remember when parties were all about the party
bags and lemonade! So here is the perfect mix to give you the best of
both worlds.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Ingredients:</span><br />
<ul>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">3 raspberries</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">30ml honey</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">30ml lemon juice</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">30ml water</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">200ml ginger beer</span></li>
<li><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Lemon slice</span></li>
</ul>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Method:</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Put the raspberries, honey, lemon juice and water into a pan and
boil. Then simmer the mixture for 5 minutes until the fruit has
completely broken down. After this remove from the heat and let cool
before straining into an ice filled glass of choice. Then fill the rest
of the glass with ginger beer and serve with a lemon slice on the side.</span><br />
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<strong><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Emily x</span></strong><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Original Article can be found here: http://www.hercampus.com/school/leeds/single-girls-and-cocktails</span></div>
Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-32278801016445569232014-02-10T18:47:00.000-08:002014-02-10T18:47:35.208-08:00Do they mean well or just think they know it all?<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Hello,</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now strangely for me I was having a reasonably okay day. Nothing majorly exciting had happened, nor had anything particularly bad happened. It started off with what<b> should have made it difficult</b> for me as I was made to start work at 9am rather than my usual 12pm which meant not only an early start but a change to my exercise schedule. But yet <b>I didn't let this get to me.</b> Even when I missed my planned later <b>Body Pump</b> session in the evening because I fell asleep! Yet I still wasn't that upset! Okay yes I had done Level's Two and Three of <b>Jillian Michael's 30 Day Shred</b> so I had my exercise fix but my exercise addiction tells me it's crucial to do Body Pump as well. But I'm slowly learning<b> I don't need to </b>and there's always tomorrow! (I'm actually quite proud of myself for being able to write that! Let's just hope I keep that saying in my head the next time I miss a session.)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Another thing that should have really wound myself up is that after agreeing to finally have a coffee with my friend <b>Fe (Conditioning instructor at the Gym).</b> You see she can only do Monday's and where I'm always usually working the 12pm-5pm shift at work I can't normally fit this in! So for once I saw my early finish of 2pm to be the perfect opportunity to finally have a long overdue catch up with her! Of course you can probably guess what was coming... <b>she cancelled</b>. I almost knew it straight from the text she sent me first thing this morning saying she 'might' be going shopping with her friend. Then her Mum needed to be taken into town and plus she said she had problems with low energy due to having a bad day yesterday and meditation not working or some other long winded reason that I've lost all ability to keep up. <b>I wish sometimes people would just be striaght</b> sometimes and say they don't fancy meeting up. But you know what I didn't let this bother me either and just used it as an excuse to go home. <b>I really did not want to let anything bring me down!</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Even the fact that I had the most <b>unproductive evening</b> of my life didn't phase me. You think having come home from work at two, finished all my exercise for the day by half three and watched all the TV I wanted to catch up with by four. I would have been more productive with the mountain of uni work I had. Well as you can guess of course I've done basically none of it. I just <b>didn't have the motivation</b> to do it, and <b>chose the option of sleep</b> instead. After all I chose the 'health' benefit option. Well that and then choosing to watch Hollyoaks, tomorrows Hollyoaks, rest a little more, Eastenders and then any other program that could act as a distraction. Oh well, it will get done. Maybe not when I would have liked it done by, but I certainly will make sure it's done tomorrow!</span><br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVpmcWgFpLl1tUFdBabCMU7gGoNwUYSNioyFT1XRajWsbskkxhi7EjFhbtq2xzUEkmEXGMD2S_6OlfE_9Ar9b_hx7yErxXIGKMU7UO1B3oM4A7M8_X04Y_TZ_ldAuYjgm0rxPVDv2m6QY/s1600/twitterpost1.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgVpmcWgFpLl1tUFdBabCMU7gGoNwUYSNioyFT1XRajWsbskkxhi7EjFhbtq2xzUEkmEXGMD2S_6OlfE_9Ar9b_hx7yErxXIGKMU7UO1B3oM4A7M8_X04Y_TZ_ldAuYjgm0rxPVDv2m6QY/s1600/twitterpost1.png" height="158" width="320" /></a><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So why am I now upset? Well I guess it's all over <b>one little comment</b>. Yes that really is all it takes to really wind me up. I hate how I let this things get to me but I think it was the combination of what they said, who said it and the fact that someone else passed judgment on it. All when <b>they don't truly understand my situation</b>. Okay let me explain.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Earlier this evening I wrote a tweet reading: <b>'Don't understand why I feel constantly so drained of energy! :(</b>' A simple tweet expressing that I was feeling particularly tired today and do tend to reach a slump of energy at some point most days. But then again <b>this isn't something overly unusual</b>. I'm sure many of you can say you've had the exact same feeling before. Plus I know exactly why I'm feeling tired. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">1. I was up early this morning and went to bed late too. As per but still it's def a major reason. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">2. I'd been at work all day, and on days I'm not at work I'm at uni. If not both! So I'm constantly on the go!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">3. I had done 40 minutes of 30 Day Shred today and that was with having been at work since crack of dawn and only had one cup of black instant coffee! Therefore hadn't had my caffeine fix either really!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>So is it any wonder why I was feeling tired?</b>! Yet everyone always decides what the reason is for me it seems. And it's constantly to do with my weight. How many times do people want to interfere?!!!! Yes,<b> I'm well aware I'm far too skinny and underweight! </b>But that is not the reason I am tired! So to receive a tweet reply reading: <b>'you don't eat enough Hun food is fuel for your body xx'.</b> I'm sorry. What?! Who do they think they are? For starters, how do they know what I eat? They don't know my situation, especially when the person who wrote it isn't even a friend. <b>It was my friend's Mum!</b> Yes you read that right, her Mum! My own Mum would never dream of writing to my friends. Let alone a response like that! I think even if my own freind had written it I would be more understanding but no! <b>How dare they accuse me of not eating enough! </b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Okay on the surface yes <b>I probably do look like I starve myself,</b> but I don't! I eat, a lot! Enough to maintain weight at least and that's considering I do exercise daily! Alright I know I should be eating to gain, and some days I do! But I'm by no means trying to keep my weight low on purpose. I'm not dieting. <b>I'm not restricting. I'm eating!</b> And often enjoying it too! So the fact they had the cheek to make a judgment when they don't even know me really is the frustrating part! Plus it's<b> the fact that people just seem to make assumptions about me</b> just from a photograph. (This woman last saw me in the Summer) So they don't know what I'm like now, or my state of mind!</span><br />
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgb3rwN1OmQ6-UT7FBRtI-G0z5wlfBDK42v3Z1fBMt-3XSNzvoJDKbvDioPejpyCOV9qtcCZGanY03eOir103aSffh12l_WK-Mn8TXkYyPsaMf0l3KwOhAChbgWHnzSRHufoHZoFH6pjtk/s1600/twitterpost2.png" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgb3rwN1OmQ6-UT7FBRtI-G0z5wlfBDK42v3Z1fBMt-3XSNzvoJDKbvDioPejpyCOV9qtcCZGanY03eOir103aSffh12l_WK-Mn8TXkYyPsaMf0l3KwOhAChbgWHnzSRHufoHZoFH6pjtk/s1600/twitterpost2.png" height="136" width="320" /></a><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">To make matters worse I then noticed that another friend from when I was in secondary school and haven't seen since about two years ago then <b>'Favourited'</b> my friend's Mum's tweet! Like she was in support of what they had said. Almost <b>suggesting that they think I have a problem as well. </b>This led to my anger being heightened even further and my fury inspire this long winded blog post having a rant yet again. Plus it also saw me quickly make a sharp response to my friend's Mum saying:<b> 'I do eat enough! The reason I'm so tired is because I'm constantly on the go and always busy juggling uni and a 20hr week job!' </b>I feel they should consider other reasons and not just jump to their first conclusion and immediatly think they're right! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Okay I know <b>they probably didn't mean any harm</b>. They probably just want me to be better and see me back at full health. But it irritates me how people assume they know best when in fact they don't know me at all. <b>They don't know me. </b>They don't know my situation and they certainly don't know what goes on in my head. Nor my lifestyle! So sometimes I think <b>people need to consider what they say and not jump to immediate conclusions</b> without considering other options too. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Although I certainly know I can make up my mind before knowing all the facts. I guess in a way <b>it's going to make me think</b> before always just assuming things, so at least I've learnt from this. Also it makes me all the more <b>determined to prove them wrong!</b> Let's hope they learn their lesson too.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Emily x</b></span>Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-34348076462269126892014-02-02T15:15:00.003-08:002014-02-02T15:15:53.796-08:00Is Beige the new 'IT' Colour? - Review of ELF Nail Polish in Desert Haze<div id="stcpDiv" style="left: -1988px; position: absolute; top: -1999px;">
In
terms of longevity I will admit there are probably better makes than
this one as I will admit this did chip rather easily (within two days).
Even with top coat applied. Despite it's claims of being Chip
resistant. Then again most nail polishes are prone to chipping these
days regardless of their claims? <br /><br />Regardless, for colour purposes
this one is an instant hit! Plus with the cost being so cheap (I looked
up the price and it's only £2.50!) So in my opinion you can't really go
wrong! Plus it was mega fast drying meaning I didn't have to wait four
hours before touching anything for fear of smudging a nail. <br /><br />Overall Rating out of 10: 8<br /><br />Colour: 9<br />Chip resistant: 7<br />Price: 9<br />Size of bottle: 7<br />Trendiness: 8<br /><br />Would
I buy again: Yes :D - See more at:
http://www.baobella.com/forum/talkview/is-beige-the-new-it-colour-review-of-elf-nail-polish/show#sthash.tdqCl3wV.dpufIt seems that over the last month or so my love of nail polish's has come back. I went for absolutely ages without having a care in the world, generally because I became quite lazy with the constant upkeep of doing them all the time. Plus I have the problem of quite weak nails that snap all the time (probably not aided by my horrible biting habit) but also through years of wearing acrylics.It
seems that over the last month or so my love of nail polish's has come
back. I went for absolutely ages without having a care in the world,
generally because I became quite lazy with the constant upkeep of doing
them all the time. Plus I have the problem of quite weak nails that snap
all the time (probably not aided by my horrible biting habit) but also
through years of wearing acrylics.</div>
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<br />However, after deciding to
receive a manicure just before Christmas as a little treat to myself
I've found myself trying to maintain my nail's colourful appearance.
Swapping colours, repainting and generally looking out for the different
nail colour trends again. Something that I haven't done in absolute
forever!<br /><br />It's quite nice really having something new to look out
for and it's amazing how much better your nails do look when painted and
looked after. It just makes you feel better as you have something nicer
about yourself, especially when receiving compliments from other people
about how nice they look. For me, receiving a compliment is something
that instantly can brighten my day as I feel like I've taken a bit of a
confidence knock as of late and seemed to receive very few anymore. So
no matter how small the complement I really do appreciate them!<br /><br />Anyway,
as I was doing a bit of research into nail beauty trends I was browsing
on Baobella and came across the competition to win one of the brand new
colour's from ELF. As you can probably guess I was one of the very
lucky few that did in fact get chosen! To say I was shocked would be
putting it lightly! I never win anything! Plus the fact it was a new
nail polish - the exact thing I visited the site for to gain new
information about - was what I had won!<br /><br />The wait for the nail
polish to arrive was tense to say the least. All I wanted to know was
what colour was I gonna get to try out. I'd seen a lot in the media
about 'Beige' being the new so-called 'IT' colour and one that everyone
was embracing for the spring period. So I did have a sneaky suspicion
that Baobella might have been sending me one in that sort of shade.
Which was confirmed when I opened my little package to find ELF nail
polish in shade 'Desert Haze'. At first I questioned why it was called
this, I always associated 'Desert' with yellowy tones. But then I guess
when you think of it, most sand is more of a beigey colour anyway and
that combined with Haze which reminds me of grey actually suits the
colour quite well. (Let me know what you think too)<br /><br />After my
whole minute or so of deliberating the name I couldn't resist whipping
out the nail polish remover to take off the previous red colour I had
been sporting (in relation to the fact my work uniform is now a red
top). So that I could instantly put the Desert Haze shade to good use!
It would have been rude not to, don't you agree? I've got to say I'm
very pleased with the shade! <br /><br />In the past I never would have even
considered trying such a neutral shade. I would always think either
bright, bold or glitter were the only options! But I was pleasently
surprised by just how much I loved the trend. It seems I weren't the
only one too! I think within a day I had three people compliment me on
the colour and ask what one it was! I guess beige really is the new
colour trend everyone wants to embrace!<br /><br />In terms of longevity I
will admit there are probably better makes than this one as I will admit
this did chip rather easily (within two days). Even with top coat
applied. Despite it's claims of being Chip resistant. Then again most
nail polishes are prone to chipping these days regardless of their
claims? <br /><br />Regardless, for colour purposes this one is an instant
hit! Plus with the cost being so cheap (I looked up the price and it's
only £2.50!) So in my opinion you can't really go wrong! Plus it was
mega fast drying meaning I didn't have to wait four hours before
touching anything for fear of smudging a nail. <br /><br />Overall Rating out of 10: 8<br /><br />Colour: 9<br />Chip resistant: 7<br />Price: 9<br />Size of bottle: 7<br />Trendiness: 8<br /><br />Would
I buy again: Yes :D - See more at:
http://www.baobella.com/forum/talkview/is-beige-the-new-it-colour-review-of-elf-nail-polish/show#sthash.tdqCl3wV.dpuf<span style="font-family: 'Times New Roman', serif; font-size: 12pt;">It seems
that over the last month or so my love of nail polish's has come back. I went
for absolutely ages without having a care in the world, generally because I
became quite lazy with the constant upkeep of doing them all the time. Plus I
have the problem of quite weak nails that snap all the time (probably not aided
by my horrible biting habit) but also through years of wearing acrylics.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Hello ladies,</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It seems
that over the last month or so my <b><span style="color: #e06666;">love of nail polish's has come back</span></b>. I went
for absolutely ages without having a care in the world, generally because I
became quite lazy with the constant upkeep of doing them all the time. Plus I
have the problem of quite weak nails that snap all the time (probably not aided
by my horrible biting habit) but also through years of wearing acrylics.<o:p></o:p></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">However, after deciding to receive a manicure just before Christmas as a little treat to myself I've found myself trying to maintain my nail's colourful appearance. Swapping colours, repainting and generally looking out for the different nail colour trends again. Something that I haven't done in absolute forever!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">It's quite nice really having something new to look out for and it's amazing how much better your nails do look when painted and looked after. It just makes you feel better as you have something nicer about yourself, especially when receiving compliments from other people about how nice they look. For me, </span><b style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><span style="color: #e06666;">r</span></b><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><b>eceiving a compliment is something that instantly can brighten my day</b></span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> as I feel like I've taken a bit of a confidence knock as of late and seemed to receive very few anymore. So no matter how small the complement I really do appreciate them!</span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><br /></span>
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">Anyway, as I was doing a bit of research into nail beauty trends I was browsing on </span><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><b><a href="http://www.baobella.com/profile/emilywillson" target="_blank">Baobella</a></b></span><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"> and came across the competition to win one of the brand new colour's from </span><b style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;"><span style="color: #e06666;">ELF</span></b><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">. As you can probably guess I was one of the very lucky few that did in fact get chosen! To say I was shocked would be putting it lightly! I never win anything! Plus the fact it was a new nail polish - the exact thing I visited the site for to gain new information about - was what I had won!</span><br />
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The wait for the nail polish to arrive was tense to say the least. All I wanted
to know was what colour was I gonna get to try out. I'd seen a lot in the media
about <b><span style="color: #e06666;">'Beige' being the new so-called 'IT' colour</span></b> and one that everyone was
embracing for the spring period. So I did have a sneaky suspicion that Baobella
might have been sending me one in that sort of shade. Which was confirmed when
I opened my little package to find <b><span style="color: #e06666;">ELF nail polish in shade 'Desert Haze'</span></b>. At
first I questioned why it was called this, I always associated 'Desert' with
yellowy tones. But then I guess when you think of it, most sand is more of a
beigey colour anyway and that combined with Haze which reminds me of grey
actually suits the colour quite well. (Let me know what you think too)</span></span></div>
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<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNgKyF_7C_H5nJE_eXatU-juHMvVcuWdRaI43qs2ijZ8OI_PAFPctwBeyLHLKmovhLXJK6H2_C672SUedde6p9WIm3Si6IHMiZlQAb9HwlRtI84RUG3uPS2mq02YApUxIFp6EGHqn_rMs/s1600/IMG_3365.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgNgKyF_7C_H5nJE_eXatU-juHMvVcuWdRaI43qs2ijZ8OI_PAFPctwBeyLHLKmovhLXJK6H2_C672SUedde6p9WIm3Si6IHMiZlQAb9HwlRtI84RUG3uPS2mq02YApUxIFp6EGHqn_rMs/s1600/IMG_3365.JPG" height="320" width="320" /></a><span style="font-size: 12pt;"><span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><br />
After my whole minute or so of deliberating the name I couldn't resist whipping
out the nail polish remover to take off the previous red colour I had been
sporting (in relation to the fact my work uniform is now a red top). So that I
could instantly put the Desert Haze shade to good use! It would have been rude
not to, don't you agree? I've got to say I'm very pleased with the shade! <br />
<br />
In the past I never would have even considered trying such a neutral shade. I
would always think either bright, bold or glitter were the only options! But I
was pleasently surprised by just how much I loved the trend. It seems I weren't
the only one too! I think within a day <b><span style="color: #e06666;">I had three people compliment me</span></b> on the
colour and ask what one it was! I guess beige really is the new colour trend
everyone wants to embrace!<br />
<br />
In terms of longevity I will admit there are probably better makes than this
one as I will admit this <b><span style="color: #e06666;">did chip rather easily</span></b> (within two days). Even with
top coat applied. Despite it's claims of being Chip resistant. Then again most
nail polishes are prone to chipping these days regardless of their claims? <br />
<br />
Regardless, for colour purposes this one is an instant hit! Plus with the cost
being so cheap (I looked up the price and it's only <b><span style="color: #e06666;">£2.50</span></b>!) So in my opinion
you can't really go wrong! Plus it was mega <b><span style="color: #e06666;">fast drying</span></b> meaning I didn't have
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Overall Rating out of 10: <b><span style="color: #e06666;">8</span></b><br />
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Colour: <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>9</b></span><br />
Chip resistant: <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>7</b></span><br />
Price: <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>9</b></span><br />
Size of bottle: <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>7</b></span><br />
Trendiness: <b><span style="color: #e06666;">8</span></b><br />
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However, after deciding to receive a manicure just before Christmas as a little treat to myself I've found myself trying to maintain my nail's colourful appearance. Swapping colours, repainting and generally looking out for the different nail colour trends again. Something that I haven't done in absolute forever!</div>
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It's quite nice really having something new to look out for and it's amazing how much better your nails do look when painted and looked after. It just makes you feel better as you have something nicer about yourself, especially when receiving compliments from other people about how nice they look. For me, receiving a compliment is something that instantly can brighten my day as I feel like I've taken a bit of a confidence knock as of late and seemed to receive very few anymore. So no matter how small the complement I really do appreciate them!</div>
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Anyway, as I was doing a bit of research into nail beauty trends I was browsing on Baobella and came across the competition to win one of the brand new colour's from ELF. As you can probably guess I was one of the very lucky few that did in fact get chosen! To say I was shocked would be putting it lightly! I never win anything! Plus the fact it was a new nail polish - the exact thing I visited the site for to gain new information about - was what I had won!</div>
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The wait for the nail polish to arrive was tense to say the least. All I wanted to know was what colour was I gonna get to try out. I'd seen a lot in the media about 'Beige' being the new so-called 'IT' colour and one that everyone was embracing for the spring period. So I did have a sneaky suspicion that Baobella might have been sending me one in that sort of shade. Which was confirmed when I opened my little package to find ELF nail polish in shade 'Desert Haze'. At first I questioned why it was called this, I always associated 'Desert' with yellowy tones. But then I guess when you think of it, most sand is more of a beigey colour anyway and that combined with Haze which reminds me of grey actually suits the colour quite well. (Let me know what you think too)</div>
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After my whole minute or so of deliberating the name I couldn't resist whipping out the nail polish remover to take off the previous red colour I had been sporting (in relation to the fact my work uniform is now a red top). So that I could instantly put the Desert Haze shade to good use! It would have been rude not to, don't you agree? I've got to say I'm very pleased with the shade!</div>
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In the past I never would have even considered trying such a neutral shade. I would always think either bright, bold or glitter were the only options! But I was pleasently surprised by just how much I loved the trend. It seems I weren't the only one too! I think within a day I had three people compliment me on the colour and ask what one it was! I guess beige really is the new colour trend everyone wants to embrace!</div>
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In terms of longevity I will admit there are probably better makes than this one as I will admit this did chip rather easily (within two days). Even with top coat applied. Despite it's claims of being Chip resistant. Then again most nail polishes are prone to chipping these days regardless of their claims?</div>
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Regardless, for colour purposes this one is an instant hit! Plus with the cost being so cheap (I looked up the price and it's only £2.50!) So in my opinion you can't really go wrong! Plus it was mega fast drying meaning I didn't have to wait four hours before touching anything for fear of smudging a nail.</div>
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Overall Rating out of 10: 8</div>
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Colour: 9</div>
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Chip resistant: 7</div>
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Price: 9</div>
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Size of bottle: 7</div>
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Trendiness: 8</div>
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Would I buy again: Yes :D - See more at: http://www.baobella.com/forum/talkview/is-beige-the-new-it-colour-review-of-elf-nail-polish/show#sthash.tdqCl3wV.dpuf</div>
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In
terms of longevity I will admit there are probably better makes than
this one as I will admit this did chip rather easily (within two days).
Even with top coat applied. Despite it's claims of being Chip
resistant. Then again most nail polishes are prone to chipping these
days regardless of their claims? <br /><br />Regardless, for colour purposes
this one is an instant hit! Plus with the cost being so cheap (I looked
up the price and it's only £2.50!) So in my opinion you can't really go
wrong! Plus it was mega fast drying meaning I didn't have to wait four
hours before touching anything for fear of smudging a nail. <br /><br />Overall Rating out of 10: 8<br /><br />Colour: 9<br />Chip resistant: 7<br />Price: 9<br />Size of bottle: 7<br />Trendiness: 8<br /><br />Would
I buy again: Yes :D - See more at:
http://www.baobella.com/forum/talkview/is-beige-the-new-it-colour-review-of-elf-nail-polish/show#sthash.tdqCl3wV.dpuf</div>
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In
terms of longevity I will admit there are probably better makes than
this one as I will admit this did chip rather easily (within two days).
Even with top coat applied. Despite it's claims of being Chip
resistant. Then again most nail polishes are prone to chipping these
days regardless of their claims? <br /><br />Regardless, for colour purposes
this one is an instant hit! Plus with the cost being so cheap (I looked
up the price and it's only £2.50!) So in my opinion you can't really go
wrong! Plus it was mega fast drying meaning I didn't have to wait four
hours before touching anything for fear of smudging a nail. <br /><br />Overall Rating out of 10: 8<br /><br />Colour: 9<br />Chip resistant: 7<br />Price: 9<br />Size of bottle: 7<br />Trendiness: 8<br /><br />Would
I buy again: Yes :D - See more at:
http://www.baobella.com/forum/talkview/is-beige-the-new-it-colour-review-of-elf-nail-polish/show#sthash.tdqCl3wV.dpuf</div>
Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-37214180353594996432014-01-26T19:52:00.003-08:002014-01-26T19:54:52.898-08:00Exercise, Pampering, Coffee and Films - My Good Things in Life.<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">For once I can genuinely say <b><span style="color: #e06666;">I've had a lovely day</span></b>! From what could have turned out to be me moping about all day in some miserable state, I managed to perk up my mood and make sure I was happy. I've realised that <b><span style="color: #e06666;">only I can truly make a change</span></b> and if I'm not willing to help myself then I can't seriously expect anyone to help me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I initially didn't have all that great of a start. I planned to get up and go to an express Zumba (45 mins) but after going to bed at half 4 in the morning, I think it was pretty safe to say I wasn't going to be making a 9am <b><span style="color: #e06666;">Zumba</span></b> class! So luckily I did cancel my place the night before but still set my alarm thinking if I woke up and still wanted to go I'm sure there would have been a space. Either way, when the alarm went off my head was pounding! I had no intentions of getting ready to go to the class. Which I will admit I knew I'd be upset about later on. But I knew for my own health sake I was better off sleeping! So that's exactly what I did. Even when my alarm later went off I still had a <b><span style="color: #e06666;">headache</span></b> though. So again I slept for a little bit longer, and longer and yet the headache was still not there. Brilliant. Something was telling me this wasn't sleep related. But being the stubborn person I am I decided rather than taking some painkillers that instead I would sulk. As per. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Thank god I got my act in gear. After my Mum rung me at about half 12 I decided enough was a enough and I needed to stop driving myself into a depressive state. After a quick call I decided I should at least fix my eyelashes and consider an action plan for the day. This began with some form of exercise. My legs ached, my head hurt but got to say doing Jillian's good old <b><span style="color: #e06666;">30 Day Shred</span></b> always make me feel better. I may hate the thought of enduring squat jumps. rock star jumps and the whole thing really but there's nothing better than finishing it. Although what I don't get is that even though I still feel like I'm working out I don't get the whole 'OMG I'm absolutely dying' feeling anymore. Now this can either mean my fitness has improved (unlikely) or I'm not putting in as much effort (more likely). But anyway normally I'd feel disappointed and feel the need to find more exercise to do. But being good as I know I need to put on weight I refrained myself and told myself it WAS enough! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">To distract myself I then got into contact with a friend who's training to be a masseuse. She asked me if I'd be a case study for her, which of course (even though it's an extreme hard ship having to receive a free full body and Indian head massage) that I would do it! Got to say it was exactly what I needed!<b><span style="color: #e06666;"> I completely relaxed</span></b> and considering over the last few days I've had aching shoulders, which I'm not sure if it was stress/sleeping dodgy/Body Pump/all 3 related. Was the perfect fix! I could literally feel the tension leaving them and was so nice just shutting off and having me time. Plus being friends with her always helps because we then got to have a good old chat afterwards. Including a trip to <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>Costa</b></span> for a coffee! <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>Massage and Coffee</b></span>! My day was getting better!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I couldn't believe that it was actually 6pm by the time I got in. Although I was quite happy that it was evening and time to sit and enjoy some Sunday evening TV entertainment. You can always rely on a channel having a film on and I love it even more when it's one I haven't seen before. Got to say I did enjoy watching <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>Mirror, Mirror</b></span>. Yes I'm still a child at heart. </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Just goes to show I suppose sometimes the littlest things can make a good night, <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>Exercise, Pampering, Coffee and Films</b></span> seem to work for me.</span></div>
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Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-11485311452001226572014-01-21T15:08:00.000-08:002014-01-22T15:08:53.555-08:00The Gym Flipped Up<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hello everybody,</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Just thought I'd share a little video that has actually made me smile just because it plays on stereotypes so well! My friend (who is a <b><span style="color: #e06666;">fitness instructor</span></b>) posted this on their Facebook page and after watching it I can certainly say it's very fitting for anybody who has ever been in a <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>gym</b></span> or even if you have the imaginary vision from things you've seen in films and on telly! It's certainly comical and even though I've not personally (or at least I don't think I have) been subject to these <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>stereotypes</b></span> I most definitely know people who do. Have a watch and I'm sure you'll agree...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hope this made you smile. Although it might be just because I'm a complete and utter<b><span style="color: #e06666;"> fitness addict</span></b> that this amuses me so much. I dunno.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Emily x</b></span>Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-27093843367191215742014-01-17T20:39:00.000-08:002014-01-22T15:10:39.101-08:00When is enough ever enough?<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I feel like I really am losing my mind. I'm realising it more and more how obsessive I am and just how bad it's getting. For the past few weeks I thought my exercise addiction was coming under control. I started getting contempt with just doing 10 minute spurts of workouts that often weren't even making me out of breath. I guess part of that is due to having quite a high fitness level but still you think I might get a little bit hot. Well maybe even if I do I pass it off as the heating, but then again I think that is the case seeing as I live in what can only be described as a home sauna! The best thing is at the time of night I choose to exercise in Leeds at home as well, my room's at it's optimum heat (due to having the radiator and heater at it's peak and on all day) so it's also ridiculously hot too!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But anyway more to the point. I was slowly getting better. If I think back to just a few months ago unless I'd done at least an hour of cardio or equivalent plus <b><span style="color: #e06666;">Body Pump</span></b> 4 days in a week I wasn't satisfied! So to now only be doing so little exercise was good for me! I even convinced myself in my head that my body wasn't physically able to complete Jillian Michael Workout 3 30 Day Shred. Even though I know I can, but it was my way of convincing myself to do less exercise. So it would seem that I was really getting over this addiction. Or so I thought.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well that's until the last few days. I'm realising now that I'm still just as obsessed I'm just not actually doing as much. Yet this is just making me upset and angry. With myself. All because I don't believe I've done <b><span style="color: #e06666;">ENOUGH</span></b> exercise. When in reality I've done a perfectly adequate amount for maintaining a normal level of fitness and in comparison to some people far more than they could ever imagine. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I mean for example today I had planned to do what I call<b><span style="color: #e06666;"> 'light' exercise</span></b> by attending a Body Pump class and an express one at that! (45 Minute rather than an hour, meaning two tracks at least are usually cut.) I planned to this and then do a 'quick' cardio style boost when I got home after my train back to Essex. (Plus my daily stretches/ab routine that I don't even include anymore as it's just habit and something I've done since I was 14). This should have been satisfactory for me. I was thinking that I would be okay. Well then a spanner was thrown in the works.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Upon arriving at the gym I went and collected my ticket from reception to prove I was booked into the class. Nothing too un-normal apart from the fact normally we can do it at self service but the machine wasn't working properly. So I queued alongside other people inquiring about their memberships plus the other girls planning on doing Body Pump. Then after getting my ticket I strolled through the turn barrier, went upstairs to Studio 2, of which I could hear the instructor talking. All normal. Then just as I strolled through the doors I hear the class coordinator say to the instructor 'We're gonna have to tell them.' That's when I knew something was about to go wrong. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">They were cancelling the class! You can imagine my utmost horror at this revelation! What on earth was I going to do for exercise now?! Due to the time of the class being 12 I knew it was too late for me to enter the normal gym on my membership... not that I was really in the mood for cardio anyway. Which would have been all I would have done because for some reason in my head the only cardio machine in the gym that's even effective is a treadmill. But more to the point. I was now Body Pump less! And the gym's justification... all becasue 'Exams are on!' So hold on one minute. You're cancelling the class because Exams are on! And you haven't known about these exams for over a month!! They said that they didn't realise it was a 3 hour exam or something, but I didn't see anyone in the sports hall so I have no idea where they got that rubbish from. All I knew was they was cancelling my class and I was left without my Body Pump.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">To say I was <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>unimpressed and frustrated</b></span> was nothing. So believe me I expressed my <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>annoyance</b></span> to the gym. Of which they offered me the compensation of being allowed in the normal gym even though it was out of my membership hours. You think I would have been happy with this but I think the fact that I was desperate to do Body Pump meant that anything else was going to be of disappointment to me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Regardless of course I accepted the gym entry. As much as I wasn't up for the gym I knew in my head that if I turned it down I'd be even angrier. So in I trotted and before I knew it, I was on a treadmill. I convinced myself to do 10 minutes and thought somehow in my head that I would have <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>burned</b></span> about <b><span style="color: #e06666;">100 calories</span></b> by that point. Well it turns out that was an underestimation and half! So of course I kept going and going and as I reached a goal I then set the bar further and further until I eventually stopped after half an hour and <b><span style="color: #e06666;">5.35K</span></b>. Not bad I suppose for someone who hasn't run that distance in a good few months! But even though this would have used to make me feel brilliant about myself. I stepped of the treadmill and still felt utterly disappointed. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What is wrong with me? I'd just run over 5k! How could I not be happy?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I guess it's just me and no matter what I do anymore I always feel like a let down.</span><br />
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<br />Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-4877928580686181752014-01-14T19:15:00.001-08:002014-01-14T19:15:06.179-08:00Satin Pink Barry M Raspberry Nails Review<a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiY7HmKhD9mDjIRVgoG07FLzka_rOVtniZECPHljF3ppcFA_W8if4MvWvnPFMRrMvh6cYbKOonJ0wofaDf6p19TgGxTX0-_P5YKPPxK-0UuIgLXEcGdynyUtjiuaGC6Y109qykvL9lKtYQ/s1600/IMG_3282%5B1%5D.JPG" imageanchor="1" style="clear: right; float: right; margin-bottom: 1em; margin-left: 1em;"><img border="0" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiY7HmKhD9mDjIRVgoG07FLzka_rOVtniZECPHljF3ppcFA_W8if4MvWvnPFMRrMvh6cYbKOonJ0wofaDf6p19TgGxTX0-_P5YKPPxK-0UuIgLXEcGdynyUtjiuaGC6Y109qykvL9lKtYQ/s320/IMG_3282%5B1%5D.JPG" width="320" /></a><span style="background-color: white; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">As a </span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"><span style="color: #e06666;"><b>post exam treat</b></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"> to myself today after what can only be described as an awful experience I decided that I'd go and have a mini manicure at the local beauty salon in the Student Union. After all I felt my nails needed some sort of care after I'd bitten them to pieces in my stress, including biting off half the nail varnish I'd formally had on them! So they certainly were in a bit of a state to say the least! </span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;" /><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"><span style="color: #646464;">Anyway, the beautician filed my nails back into a decent shape and removed the scraps of nail polish I had on my nails previous before asking me to choose a colour to go for. To be honest I wasn't really minding what I had and was quite happy to go for anything. I asked what she recommended and she said she quite liked the current </span><b><span style="color: #e06666;">Satin</span></b><span style="color: #646464;"> coloured trend. I certainly was game and more than happy to give the trend a go, I knew I'd like it and if I didn't what's the worst to happen. I take the varnish off!</span></span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;" /><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;" /><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"><span style="color: #646464;">Anyway we went with a reddy pink as she said she could see I was a girly girl (sure my baby pink vest top/cardigan and necklace didn't give that away). So suggested the</span><b><span style="color: #e06666;"><a href="http://www.barrym.com/products/nails/paint/all-nail-paints.html" target="_blank"> Barry M Raspberry Nail Paint (No.273)</a></span></b><span style="color: #646464;">. Got to say I love it!</span></span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;" /><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br />
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<span style="background-color: white; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">Now I never actually thought about nail salons actually using the 'highstreet' brands within their stores. Usually it's some professional brand that costs an absolute fortune but </span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"><span style="color: #e06666;"><b>Barry M</b></span></span><span style="background-color: white; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"> is one of them brands that I've been purchasing since being a pre-teen just for home use! But I guess it just proves tha</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">t sometimes you can get a decent polish for next to nothing. Plus the positive thing is now I know that I can achieve the same look at home!</span><span style="background-color: white; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;"><br /></span><br style="background-color: white; box-sizing: border-box; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;" /><span style="background-color: white; color: #646464; font-family: 'Helvetica Neue', Helvetica, Arial, sans-serif; font-size: 14px; line-height: 19px;">I will admit that it didn't dry mega fast. And I suspect it won't be long before I notice a chip but when you pay £2.99 for a bottle a little touch up won't hurt!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif; font-size: xx-small;">2) <a href="http://www.barrym.com/products/nails/paint/all-nail-paints.html">http://www.barrym.com/products/nails/paint/all-nail-paints.html</a></span>Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-91459041795549197432014-01-13T19:07:00.000-08:002014-01-13T19:07:26.651-08:00Happy girly.. yes really!<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well for once I can say I'm happy! Yes you did read that right I'm happy! You're probably thinking, how on earth is that possible? Has she actually lost it? This surely can't be the same girl writing the post! Well rest assured it's me. I genuinely am in a good mood! Now everything in my mind food and exercise wise, plsy work wise (uni) should be making me the complete opposite but for once I just don't care! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think it's all down to the fact I've got myself a brand new job!! I never knew such a little thing would really bring my mood up and now I have so much more positivity! I feel like my life is finally starting to get back in order! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I had an interview this morning for Ladbrokes and really did not think I would get the job! For starters I have never in my life ever set foot in a betting office before in my life! Let alone know what to expect when I got inside one. Well obvious I'm not deluded, I know the basics of how a betting shop worked. But I never imagined it to be quite so... classy. You see in my head a betting office was purely a place old men spent their afternoon's in, watching the racing or football match. Wasting away endless amounts of money on unrealistic odds but it's of course 'gonna be a winner'. But I am pleasantly surprised to say it's nothing like that at all. In fact it's friendly and modern and the stereotypical customer (jn my head that is) isn't true at all. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Yes of course you do still get old men and the image of the 'drunk' that will be in them, but you also get men barely older than me. Going along to watch the football like they would in a bar, except without the alcohol of course. But that's not to say you can't have tea/coffee or any soft drink of choice. And if you're anyone like me who doesn't feel the need to drink at every single opportunity, would probably actually quite like this! A social occasion, watching your favourite team/ athlete/ racer, with your mates (or even just chatting with others in there) and actually appreciating your television viewing as you're not getting yourself hammered in the process!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Plus the inside of the store, visually is nothing like I was expecting. It's modern and somewhere you'd actually want to spend a bit of time in. Comfortable stools and arm chairs, large plasma screens, highly technological rolling poster boards, plus a rather plush coffee machine area! (Always something that will win me over). Plus also options to play other games that I wasn't aware of, such as using the in game/slot style machines and the tablet section connected to the Ladbrokes online site. So it seems the traditional betting office is long gone and we're now in an era of multi-media options and a variety of gaming options. And I thought this job was going to be dull and boring!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Seeing how nice it was in store made me all the more wanting to actually work there! I was thinking of it as just being a job to keep me going while at uni and hopefully not sod this one up! But after visiting a store it actually seems like somewhere I might enjoy and be able to socialize while at work. I could even end up having fun! (I bet I won't be saying that after working there for a month or two though... but we can live in hope!)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Anyway as you can probably work out! I got the job!!! I am now an official employee at one of the city centre stores in Leeds and I couldn't be happier! To think I wasn't actually even going to go to the interview either as I wasn't confident about getting the bus to where the interview was being held and came to the conclusion that I wouldn't get the job anyway so why bother? Well I'm so glad that I convinced myself to go!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Just goes to show that maybe good things do come along...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Those of you that have read my blog before will know that I have an eating disorder. I'm not anorexic in the sense that I starve myself or restrict my calories to ridiculous numbers. But I do monitor and limit my food. I'm also very OCD about the times that I will eat and any change in my routine either sees me throwing a tantrum or becoming extremely panicky. Usually resulting in me getting myself all wound up, upset and stressed out! It's more when it's impulsive as well that I seem to get even worse.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now today I actually in a way beat my fear. (Kind of anyway) and it's all thanks to Kellogg's Crunchy Nut Chocolate! You see for some reason today I just cannot stop eating this! It all started when out of the blue, this morning at about 12pm I decided impulsively that I would take a couple of the chocolate pieces out of the cereal box. Okay I would usually feel a little guilty but would get over it and assume that I would just add these on with something else I knew I would be eating later on that day. But for some unknown reason I then had some of the actual Crunchy Nut cereal as well. I then decided later on in the evening that because I'd eaten about 10 grams of the cereal I might as well use up some of my snacks allowance on having a full portion of the cereal. So after weighing this out I then put it in a bowl and planned to have it as part of my snacks (usually eaten from about quarter to 2 in the morning onwards.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But for some reason after doing a Jillian Michael's with my Mum (which I only did Level 2 of!) so not challenging at all!!! (And I'm not being sarcastic.. for once!) I decided I was actually going to eat the cereal portion then! And I didn't feel too bad about it either! This was after me panicking over so many stupid things earlier on in the day such as the fact I'd been out for a coffee with my Mum and aunt at lunch! You're think nothing unusual there then, well you're right! /But for some reason I had a little worry because I knew I was going out with my Nan and Grandad later on it that day too! Usually this involves a coffee as well! But I accepted in my head it's okay, even if you have two skinny cappuccinos you'll be fine. As it turns out, me and the Grandparents never ended up going for coffee in the end anyway! So that was a little worry over nothing!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But then I also got stressy over dinner! You see I had planned to have Chicken with my Mum and Dad as it needed using up. Then my Mum decided she wanted to put a marinade on hers so was looking at the sauces and packet mixes. For some reason I had a stress out over this too as the packet said for 4 chicken breasts and we would have been using three and I then couldn't automatically work out the nutrition! OMG what has my life become?! But anyway I then managed to get over that, once I spent ages trying to work it out and eventually realising the marinade wouldn't even be coming to 60 calories! </span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So it makes you wonder how I didn't stress out over eating a ridiculously high fat cereal! Especially as the fact that I just couldn't stop and kept going back for more and more! I think the reason maybe I've dealt so well with accepting it is partly because I know deep down I do need to gain weight! Plus I need to get the doctors/uni/society of my back! But also because I've insisted in my head that I didn't eat as much as I did. You see for once I never weighed it! Truth be told I think eating it straight from the box was the best thing as now I've just had to estimate! And I know on my tracker I would have been underestimating... by quite a lot. Partly because I wanted to make myself eat more and I knew this would be the only way of conquering my fear. But also I think I knew this wasn't going to hurt me! In fact it will probably barely impact my body at all. Even if it does it will be good for it! I need to gain weight!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think I'm only just realising how much I do and the warning from uni has been the kick up the bum I need!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Let's hope nothing makes me fall back. Which we all know is all too common. Especially in me.</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It kinda carried on from yesterday really. You see I don't know why, well I thought I kind of did but I'm sure my poor eating habits aren't the only thing to blame. But anyway whether it was that alone, the fact I'm suffering a bit from insomnia and the fact I may still slightly be in New York time. But anyway I was up all night. And when I mean all I mean I was awake until at least quarter past 6! That's without dozing or even yawning for the most part! I'm talking so wide awake I could have probably gone for a full on 5k run! So this was obviously not good at all! Especially when I'd<span style="color: #e06666;"> planned</span> to get up at a more sensible time so that I could actually <span style="color: #e06666;">start on my dossier</span>! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I bet you can guess what came next now then. You're thinking 'Ahh so she's gonna go on a<span style="color: #e06666;"> rant about how she ended up procrastinating</span> and not doing any work all day'. Well in one way yes you're right. But I did in fact start watching my BBC clips! Wait for it.... at 5 in the morning! I guess I finally did something sensible in my life for once.<span style="color: #e06666;"> I used my time productively</span>! If I wasn't going to sleep then I might as well do something half beneficial. Plus I think I kind of secretly hoped it would bore me so much I'd fall asleep!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well after watching a whole hour, I was surprisingly still wide awake. But at least I was yawning and felt like I might finally get some sort of sleep! Which to my joy I did at quarter past 6ish! So not only before I'd technically even woken up,<span style="color: #e06666;"> started my dossier work and did get some sleep!</span> Plus it got even better! My Mum booked me in to a Body Pump class for this evening! This day should have been amazing!!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But was it? Well not all of it. I won't exactly say it was the worst day, because believe me it certainly wasn't! By my standards it was pretty good! But of course there is <span style="color: #e06666;">always something that had to go wrong. </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well you could say the fact I then never got up again until half 12 was partly to do with that. Which only happened because my Nan rung asking when I wanted to go shopping. (I'd asked them the day before to take me into Basildon so I could take a coat back and I was secretly hoping for a trip to Starbucks! What a girl needs her caffeine fix! And.. I'm only 4 stars from being a Gold Member! Yes I do drink that much coffee!) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So you're still thinking the reason I'm saying I had a bad day is because I <span style="color: #e06666;">clearly haven't done the work I set out to do</span>. Which yes is the honest answer. I had a lovely time shopping, not only did I successfully return my coat with no problems, I also got my Starbucks. Okay admittedly I was actually a little disappointed in my Starbucks as it just didn't taste as good as it normally does. But that still was no worry. And guess what.. I even <span style="color: #e06666;">faced my fears</span> and got my <span style="color: #e06666;">tragus pierced!</span> At sodding last! I only went up to Bananas to enquire a price, expecting them to say something expensive and ridiculous but when they said £15 and my Nan offered to pay I knew I did have to have it done. Or else I knew I never would! And I've got to say I love it! Yes it hurt, yes it required me to eat something before I got it done! (And I did it, as much as I protested at first) But I did it!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So not even that brought be down! I mean I then had a brilliant <span style="color: #e06666;">Body Pump</span> class! Which I cannot wait to brag to a certain someone about as soon as the opportunity arises! With a secret smugness that I managed to up my squat weight too! And without having done it in about 3 weeks!<span style="color: #e06666;"> Ahh everything was going to well!</span> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I guess it all really came down to my <span style="color: #e06666;">lack of motivation to work!</span> I know I need to do it and I just can't. I feel like a failure every time I try and that's why it's the ugly! The ugly is the state that my mindset is in! The fact I can't bare to even begin my work. It's now only 10 days till it's due in and I still haven't even really started. (Until I put pen to paper it doesn't count!) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I mean today I planned on actually getting started on my dossier that I need to do for uni. I set myself a target to watch at least four hours of news. This is the start of the news that I've been telling myself for the past two weeks I was going to watch everyday. Did I do it? Of course not. I procrastinated. The one thing I can actually excel in! Why do I not have a degree or job in it? Believe me, <span style="color: #e06666;">I would be the most fantastic procrastinator ever! </span></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I should have known this was how my day would turn out to be truthful. It was destined from the minute I woke up at 10:30am, then 11am, then 11:20am and so on and so on until I eventually dragged myself out of bed at 12:45pm! What is wrong with me?!!! To think at the start of 2013 I was the person that would be up at 7:30am without fail. Now that time doesn't even exist as far as I'm concerned. Unless of course I'm still awake from the night before because I've forgotten to sleep! Well I say forgotten, more likely the fact that I can't sleep because I'm on an energy rush after still eating at about half 3 in the morning!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But anyway the fact that I didn't get up until nearly 1pm may have contributed to my lack of work. That and the fact I then decided I'd start watching one of the most ridiculous films of my life courtesy of BBC called 'Gangsta Granny'. It was poor by all accounts, yet I still found myself watching it over the thought of doing work. Plus I still kind of had in my head that I would begin watching the shows later. So anyway by the time that had finished it was about quarter past two and this is the moment my Mum says she was finally getting dressed and we could go to Sports Direct and get me some new fitness trainers. Of course I wasn't going to refuse this offer. A chance to get out of the house, go shopping and probably get a coffee! (Of which I very much enjoyed I may add. I mean come on, it was my first Costa Cappuccino of the year!) </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But back to the point. See <span style="color: #e06666;">even writing this I get distracted!</span> I think it's just now embedded in my genetic makeup. Another reason I am now excusing as to why I'm such a failure in life forever. Eurgh I really do hate myself. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Anyway, after a coffee with my very lovely mother, and deciding that I'll just be better off ordering new fitness trainers online because I'm a cheapskate and know that I can get ones similar for a cheaper price. Which I may add I will not be ordering for myself because I don't feel I deserve them. Yes the sole of my trainers may be falling off but why pay out for another thing for me when glue can easily fix the ones I've got. I know I will end up ordering them eventually but I'm gonna drag it out until my Mum literally sits me down and forces me to do it. However I know she'll probably forget (I inherited my forgetfulness from her) and then I'll go back to uni and it will all be too late. Shame!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Typing this I'm realizing more and more how <span style="color: #e06666;">I'm my own worst enemy</span>. I don't feel like I deserve anything and feel to be honest I already have far too much. I'm dreading going back to uni as I hate spending money on myself. I don't even like going food shopping as I feel I don't deserve it. I just do it because I know I have to. And even then it lands me in trouble as <span style="color: #e06666;">I hate myself so much.</span> But that's a story for another day and hopefully something that will never happen ever again. Although I fear my <span style="color: #e06666;">lack of self control</span> is going to limit me. Eurgh, this is making me want to drop out of uni more and more! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I think I'm going to have to stop here as I'm <span style="color: #e06666;">making myself feel worse </span>and worse the more I type. I know I haven't reached the end of why I've procrastinated all day but I'm sure you get the gist. In short it included a lot of social networking, reading celeb magazines, and doing my Jillian Michael's Shred. Plus watching lots of Hollyoaks that I need to catch up on from over Christmas! Let's hope somehow tomorrow I find a way to actually do some work. Otherwise I seriously <span style="color: #e06666;">might as well just become a bum for the rest of my life.</span> </span><br />
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<br />Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-24838794685681130972013-12-30T14:31:00.003-08:002014-01-01T16:30:04.988-08:00New Year 'Challenges' <span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It seems that as of late when I do find the time to actually write a post because I'm not being depressive/obsessive/anxious/ (insert whatever bad mood seems appropriate here) phase, that I'm now no longer writing a beauty blog. I know that I always write something linked to my problems and personal journey through my obsession, my confusion, my denial I guess. Which is why I feel that going into 2014 that I should at least redefine what this blog is officially categorized as. This is a <span style="color: #e06666;">personal 'recovery' blog.</span> My so-called personal journey through overcoming my obsessions and I guess you could say illness. Or at least that's how I like to think of it. Because most illnesses <b><span style="color: #e06666;">CAN</span></b> be overcome. And that's exactly what I want to do. I'm fed up with it ruling my life. So I wonder if maybe this year I will actually stop it from controlling and defining who I am. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But the one that stands out to me is the wonderfully auto-tuned rendition of '<b><span style="color: #e06666;">It's Thanksgiving</span></b>' by Nicole Westbrook. The lyrics are awful. The video is poor and don't get me wrong the girl doesn't sound terrible singing but she is blatently been heavily edited. Curtosy of parents who were desperate for thier little angel to be the next Disney megastar! But unfortunatley love we've all fallen far too much savvy to these types of media promotions now to even acknowledge this anymore. I think it's safe to say Nicole won't be making it into any of the charts any time soon.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Although I do comend her on the fact that I've managed to endure this oh so delightful video and song even though I live in England and we don't even celebrate Thanksgiving! So I congratulate her for that! All I can say is enjoy your 15 minutes of fame, I hate to be cruel but I really don't see it lasting. Unless Mummy and Daddy pay for yet another single for her...</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I admit I'm probably the same myself. For those that know me enough to get me a gift but not enough to know everything I like, hence buying gifts that well, I don't want to sound ungrateful, but aren't necessarily something I'd want.And it's the same with me buying gifts for other people. So it begs the question why we don't just make it obvious what gifts we want! If only we could post online a list of gifts we wanted like a 'wish list'! Then when people want to get you a gift for whatever reason, they could just look at your list and get you something you genuinely will like!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">It's a good job that <b><a href="https://www.ziftit.com/?mrefcode=hercampus1015" target="_blank"><span style="color: #e06666;">Ziftit</span></a></b> offer just that service. This is a shopping/ gifting website and app that allows users to create '<b><span style="color: #e06666;">Zift Lists</span></b>' (wish lists) for any occasion. You can add any item at all, from any online shop too and store it in your Zift List for all your friends and family to see. Gifters can then purchase the gifts straight from you Zift List and have it sent directly to you. So they don't even need to worry about postage and packaging! It's all too simple really, I keep thinking there must be some sort of catch!</span></div>
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">On a mission to keep my mood up, plus the fact that I was majorly procrastinating from doing my uni work I came across this cute little video on Youtube that certainly put a smile on my face. I think this would be one of the only times I would except a prank call and actually be alright with it. (Well only if Skype was involved!) If not I think I might be a little confused by what was going on but I'm sure you'll see what I mean when you watch the video yourself! So anyway here is something that I hope puts a smile on your face too and I think you'll agree you wouldn't mind getting a call from them either! </span><br />
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<br />Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-67890954431703310762013-09-23T02:58:00.003-07:002013-09-23T02:59:30.984-07:00Lack of self control<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What is wrong with me? Well I could name a lot of things actually but the one thing that I'm talking about is constantly eating! Okay at the moment this is fine. It's good in fact! If anything I should be eating 24/7 and trying to put on loads of weight! But it's the fact I'm eating when I'm not hungry then feeling really bad about it later as it's a waste of food I could have had at a later time! To most people this is ridiculous! If you want to eat something you should right? Well my head is still too messed up for that right now! I wind myself up because it's like I have a lack of self control. If something is in front of me I just feel the need to eat it whether I actually wanted it or not! Which at the moment as I said is probably not all that much of a bad thing. What concerns me is the fact that I know I won't be able to stop when I am at a normal weight! I have this fear that I'm just going to continue being like this and end up huge. I don't do enough exercise to warrant the amount I eat! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Eurgh I hate the fact I think like this! When will these thoughts stop!?</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Okay there is a reason that I haven't been posting. Not only is it partly down to laziness and lack of self motivation but as you can probably guess from the last post I actually wrote I haven't been exactly in the best of places. I wrote in my last post about how I believed I was depressed and was planning on seeking medical help. Well I can happily tell you I did in fact go and see a doctor and they've put me on a course of low dose anti-depressants. And you know what. I think they're actually working! Since I've started having them my mood has significantly lifted. It's not just me who has said it either. My Mum has said I seem so much better and she's noticed a real change! Equally my Dad said he doesn't feel like I was as snappy with him anymore and was more willing to laugh and joke about things, just like I always used to.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now I'm not saying it's a miracle cure. I've still had my low days and things do still get me down. The other day for instance. I went on a real low. I absolutely detested myself. All for the most ridiculous of reasons. Well I guess to me it's not ridiculous otherwise I wouldn't have let it bother me in the first place. But to everyone else, on the surface, it's absolutely nothing. Unless of course you're in a similar situation or have been there. You see it's one of those things that unless it's happened to you, you can never understand. No matter how much you try. Or even think you do. You can't!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">You're thinking this is linked to the whole depression thing. Well I guess in a way it kind of is. But it's also linked to something that has been an ongoing problem with me for the past five years. I always thought I'd gotten better. I always thought I'd beaten this horrific illness. But I guess deep down I always knew it was still a problem and it was only going to be so long before it started to take over again. I guess secretly it's been going on for the past two years. But then when I started university and I really thought I'd finally beaten it. I really did improve. I went from being so controlling to having much less of a care. I became so much more willing to try new things and I guess everyone just couldn't be happier with my transformation. But in a way this was also my downfall. Because with that I developed new obsessions. Possibly even worse than the original ones as even though I'd beaten one demon, another was slowly emerging underneath. And really it was the same thing, just in a new form.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Yes I have an eating disorder. As much as it pains me to write that I know it's true. Now I haven't got an eating disorder in the sense I'm starving myself (like I did when I was severely anorexic at 13/14). In fact I love food. As I write this I'm sitting eating a bowl of cereal! But I know food is an issue with me. The fact I count every calorie in my body is a fine example of that. But don't get me wrong. I will happily eat really high fat treats and snacks. Today I ate a cinnamon swirl. I got my Mum to buy me a pretzel from Mr Pretzels today, two in fact! And I will eat them. Over the past few days I've even eaten croissants, pastries, chocolate, far too much cake and doughnuts! To anyone I look like I can't stop stuffing my face. But that doesn't stop me from resenting myself for it! That doesn't stop me from feeling so physically disgusted in myself for eating it. It doesn't stop my overly obsession with exercising! It hasn't changed my absolutely ridiculous eating pattern of attempting to not eat all day only so I can stuff my face all night! Only to regret it horribly when I'm awake till half 3 every night and then wonder why I'm so bloody tired all the time! Plus it makes me feel even worse when I end up snacking on something really nice but awfully bad for me at like sometimes not even lunchtime! But why do I do this to myself?!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I know I shouldn't feel guilty for eating high fat foods! I know I shouldn't feel bad for eating.... normally! I'm young. My metabolism would burn it off anyway. Plus I do exercise so it's not like the higher fat foods with lots of calories would even really effect me that much. Also I'm severely underweight! Eating a lot more and actually putting on weight will do me good! I need to! I keep telling myself that I'm trying to! But I guess really I don't. I guess really I'm not trying that hard. I may think eating all these really high fat foods are making me put on weight. But really I know I'm probably still not eating enough calories in a day to put on weight. Maintain yes. But not put on. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I know I have a problem and I guess I need to admit that to ever be able to do anything about it.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">You must be thinking, 'she says this all the time'. Which yes I do. But this time I'm getting proper help. I thought it's best that I tell yous all first as I really don't know how this is going to effect me or what I'm going to turn out like. Let's hope for the better and I suddenly gain a new lease of life. But to be honest you never can tell. But fingers crossed it will all be good. Anyway I've actually gotten round to doing what I've known for about 8 months I needed to do. I've booked myself a doctors appointment for Tuesday and with any luck they may be able to help me stop feeling so low all the time! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I do believe I may be <b><span style="color: #e06666;">depressed</span></b>. Either that or I have severe <b><span style="color: #e06666;">anxiety/stress/OCD</span></b>. Well in fact I have all of those two. Plus I know I still have eating issues as well, not so much in the sense that I've got an actual disorder but I'm still conscious. I guess it's something that I probably always will be though ever since my <b><span style="color: #e06666;">eating disorder</span></b> when I was fourteen. But that's a whole other story. Connected to this. Possibly. The entire reason for this.Not even the slightest.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I'm hoping my <b><span style="color: #e06666;">going to see the doctor on Tuesday</span></b> they might be able to offer me some sort of antidepressant. I know they say that antidepressants are a last resort but I really have tried everything else. I've tried <b><span style="color: #e06666;">counselling</span></b> I've tried <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>hypnotherapy</b></span>. I've tried <b><span style="color: #e06666;">herbal remedies</span></b> of all kinds. I've spoken to endless amounts of people and they're not making me any better. I need something to actually give me a boost! And let's fact it, how many people in the world do actually take them? Thousands. If not millions. They're not abnormal! And I won't be abnormal for having them. If anything they will be making me normal! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So I guess we'll just have to wait and see how I get on. I really hope they see how much I need them. It really is a case of need. Of course I will listen to their suggestions and discuss alternatives, but I really can't see any other alternative right now. So keep your fingers crossed for me!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">PS: If anyone else is in the same situation or had similar experiences or anything. I'd really appreciate some ideas and advice. Equally I'm happy to discuss my own experiences too!</span><br />
<br />Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com5tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-42565911057448130422013-08-01T18:58:00.001-07:002013-08-01T18:59:22.002-07:00Defeating your problems.. One dog's inspirational story<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Hey everyone,</b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well I posted yesterday about how I was determined to make August my month and one that will be the start of a whole new me. And in a way I kind of have as I'm refusing to give up just yet. I will admit I've not had the best of days though. My emotions have been a bit all over the place and things that shouldn't have been bothering me have. But I'm not going to dwell too much and trying not to be overly negative about it. After all things aren't the end of the world and there are a lot of people who have probably had a worse day than me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">See so I am slowly becoming more optimistic! Just think I usually would have continued to be negative and not even considered that anyone could be having a worse time than me! Nor would I have thought that I could improve the situatin in any way. So I really am trying! </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So what has actually got me being so positive? Well apart from a more healthier attitude to everything I also have seen quite an inspirational video today. Now I'm not saying that this is the reason that my whole outlook on life has changed but it did make me feel quite emotional in a good way! It made me think that a lot of people and animals have a lot of difficulty in their daily lives through genuine physical problems. Where as all my issues are silly little things that are easily fixable. Some people can't just easily fix their problems. Not without a great deal of effort and determination and even then it's not always guaranteed.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Well I thought so anyway! And it just goes to show that you really can defeat your problems! So that's exactly what I aim to do! :D </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Okay I've decided that enough is enough. I need to <b><span style="color: #e06666;">stop being so negative</span></b> all the time and start actually making myself happy. They say that only one person can ever make any change in life and I know that that person is me. So unless I sort myself out I never will be happy. I never will be successful or achieve my dreams. So <b><span style="color: #e06666;">now is the start of being positive</span></b>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I know I've done this little pep talk like four billion quadrazillion times before and then like the next day I'm back to my usual miserable, depressive, crying over everything and anything self. But I refuse to be like this anymore. I've got to remember that nothing is ever as bad as I think it is and that if I'm determined to fight through problems then I'm sure I can turn any issue into at least half the problem it originally was. Plus tomorrow is the start of August. <b><span style="color: #e06666;">This month is my month!</span></b> I'm a typical Leo and have always thought of August as being the month that was made for me. Also I'm going to consider it the real start of my summer, seeing as I've wasted the rest of it with being too negative and not letting myself fully enjoy it. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Then at the end of the month I'm also going to see West Side Story at the Palace Theater in Southend. I've booked it partly because I think it will be good fun and a nice thing to see but also for my cousin's birthday (coincidentally the same day as mine!) Also it's a chance for me to actually spend some time with her, which is something I never do since going to uni!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Right I think that's enough talk about that right now! I'll save it all for another day!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">But I'm making it known! Emily is going to be a <b><span style="color: #e06666;">happy and optimistic</span></b> person (or at least I'll try to be anyway!)</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Do any of you think I can do it? Or have any tips for me?</span><br />
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b>Emily x</b></span>Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-39323463910770795922013-07-29T17:57:00.000-07:002013-07-29T17:57:44.504-07:00Bloggers Aspiration/ Rant/ Negative Thoughts by me....<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I really wish I was one of those people that sticks to their promises. I have the self control in some aspects. Like for instance I fill out an online food diary daily which tracks the nutritional information of what I eat and helps me watch what I eat. Probably both a good and bad thing to be truthful but still that's a post for another day. If I ever get round to it, that is. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">You see my problem is that I'm always trying to do four billion different things at once and never get round to finishing anything. Like I never even finished explaining things that I do on a daily basis without fail. Another example being my little standard fitness regime that is just compulsory. Again another post for another day but basically it's a set routine of sit ups, push ups, planks and stretches that I spend at least 20 minutes of my day and if I don't I feel a bit awkward. Obsessive I know. But hey that's me. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">So it really does beg the question... why can't I become just as obsessive with blogging?
I guess it's because I go from one obsession to the next. Always have done (I think anyway) and think for the foreseeable future I always will do. Then I can sometimes break those little obsessions which is good in some cases but then I just seem to move on to something else. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">I really hope that one day my obsession will be blogging because I know once I get into it I'll really be able to make a successful blog. One that's as good as all the other amazing ones I read. So many of the girls in the Her Campus blogger's network have such amazing blogs and it almost makes me depressed that I can't match them. Well I say can't. I can. I just don't. Or is it won't? Oh I don't know.
Maybe I'll sort myself out. Maybe.
Probably not anytime soon though. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Will I ever get my act together? Will I ever be the success I want to be? </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"><b><span style="color: #e06666;">Emily x</span></b> </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">PS: Sorry for the post being all a bit too personal and negative. I know I know, I don't post for ages and when I do it's a personal rant in a way. I do deeply apologize to any readers out there. I will one day be better I promise!</span>Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2557970631647475028.post-19913091983395499272013-07-18T19:09:00.002-07:002013-07-19T14:17:22.731-07:00Her Campus National Intercollegette Conference 2013<b><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hello ladies, </span></b><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Now this is something that I have been dying to tell you about and if you haven't heard of it already, where have you been? <b><span style="color: #e06666;">Her Campus</span></b> are holding their annual <b><span style="color: #e06666;">National Intercollegiette Conference</span></b> and this year it's set to be the biggest and best yet! This incredible event is happening on <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>Saturday 26th and Sunday 27th July</b></span> in the good old Big Apple (<b><span style="color: #e06666;">New York City</span></b>!) So if that's not enough of a reason to go I don't know what is! (Can anybody tell I've not actually ever been to New York before :() Therefore if like me, you've been deprived of this priviledge or even if you're a regular in the legendary city, attending this vent will be the perfect opportunity to go.</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> Okay so I may see you thinking, why else would we want to go to an event like this? Well other than the fact it's being run by the brilliant<b><span style="color: #e06666;"> Her Campus</span></b> brand but you'll also get to experience an inspiring weekend full of keynotes, panels, and workshops on everything you need to make it in the media world plus lots more. So if you've ever even considered working in this industry then this will be the ideal opportunity to network with industry leaders and other collegiettes from across the US and some even international ones like myself!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">What's more is all attendees will receive a fantastic goody bag full of freebies. As well as getting to experience lots of various activities and events from mini manicures, a braid bar, an exclusive <b><span style="color: #e06666;">BCBGeneration</span></b> sample sale, '<span style="color: #e06666;"><b>Girl Rising' film screening</b></span> all while enjoying some very tasty treats from <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>Chipotle</b></span>! So you'll leave feeling pampered, revived, knowledgeable, full from all the delish food and quite frankly in one of the happiest moods you've ever been in! I'm excited by just the thought!
But be warned ladies! Tickets are selling like Hot Cakes! If you want to go the the <span style="color: #e06666;"><b>National Intercollegiette Conference</b></span> then you need to register ASAP!</span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The link to sign up for each day are below: </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">The Saturday July 27 Conference is for Her Campus team members only. <a href="http://herconferencesaturday.eventbrite.com/">Register here</a>. </span><br />
<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> The Sunday July 28 Conference is for Her Campus team members & readers. <a href="http://herconferencesunday.eventbrite.com/#">Register here</a>. </span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;"> But as I said they're selling out fast so make sure you grab your tickets now!
Would also like to give special thanks to <b><span style="color: #e06666;">Her Campus partners, Intel, BCBGeneration, Josie by Natori, Merck, Chipotle and Amtrak for their support! </span></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Hope to see you there! </span><br />
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<b><span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Arial, Helvetica, sans-serif;">Emily x</span></b>Emily Willsonhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/05258548521237373229noreply@blogger.com0